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I was kind of a pervert as a kid as far as I can remember, I liked being naked and I liked playing with myself. This might get a little ranty but ill do my best to keep it organized.

and sometimes think im just trying to convince myself im gay and not a pedofile.Īlso let me say for the past three hours I've been reading other peoples stories and they have all made me feel a little more comfotable with my self, but lets not get me wrong It's pretty hard not to hate me with all the things i have seen online. I also Identify as a gay man, and have had sex with a couple of guys,however this is more of a new development,but even touch to me is uncomfotable, and sex is etreamly conflicted with all of these sich thoughts about boys in my head at the same time. I already have had one suicide attempt a year ago just because I felt I couldn't live with my sick head anymore, in the past year I've grown stronger with the suicide ideations, and pretty much love life and try to stay in the moment, its just the moment gets harder and harder to live in everytime a cute boy is around. I have NEVER harmmed a child, and I'd like to say I'm strong enough that I never will, but I have two little cousins who every year get closer to my A.O.A, and my thoughts scare the $#%^ out of me. First things first, I'm a 22 year old man (wow that's a first writing that) that is attracted to prepubesent boys gen.